OK, let’s just go ahead and put the cards on the table. I’m the token fat girl within all of my groups of friends. Don’t do any of those fake gasps, this isn’t news to me and it shouldn’t be news to you. Anyway, with this title comes…resentment. Yes, I believe that is the best word to describe this situation. I don’t have a healthy diet, and for the most part of my 27 years, have not really worried about what I ate. There were times that I said, ‘OK Kelly, this is outta hand, time to get it together. ‘ But, that didn’t ever last long (God willing, with this blog, I can fix that and get healthy, fat girl forever or not.). While I throw food caution to the wind, my friends and family around me have always been on the quest for healthy eating. So much so, to the point of my resentment. I would think inwardly, “Gosh, I’m fat and happy, and they are OBSESSED. They can’t really be that happy” or “JUST STOP TALKING ABOUT FOOD ALL THE TIME!” I would get sick of my sister or some of my friends just going on and on about calories, fat, intake, carbs, weight, pant size, etc, etc, etc. Sometimes I would join the conversation, especially if I was on a health kick. Other times I would wonder what they thought of me. I was obviously the one of the group who should give a dang, but I would be the one gleefully ordering a burger and fries. I would catch myself wondering if inside their minds they were thinking that I needed a salad. I mean, we all have our inner thoughts, but girls can be ruthless sometimes, thoughts expressed or not.
Well. Turns out there are a few kinds of food obsession. I might have made them up myself, but they are still completely legit. Swear. Instead of going from good to bad, I will go from bad to good…just to shake things up. Before we go any further, I want to give you an explicit definition of what it means to be obsessed:
v. ob·sessed, ob·sess·ing, ob·sess·es
To preoccupy the mind of excessively.
This would be the extremes of being obsessed with food…and in either direction, really. First and foremost, those with eating disorders. I’ve had friends that have struggled with anorexia and bulimia. Man, THAT is self discipline, for sure. However, on the other end of the spectrum are those over eaters. I would fit in here. Either these people are always obsessed with where their next meal is coming from (sad to say that’s been me before) or get caught up in eating and just eat to eat and eat because something tastes good (again, me). Either way, over or under eating…UGLY. And not just physically…but the mentality.
This was hard for me to define. Middle ground is always less exciting, eh? I came to the conclusion, with the negative connotation of the word ‘bad,’ that a bad food obsession would be those who may be obsessed with others’ food intake in a negative way. That’s just mean, read BAD. I would love some input from you if you have any thoughts on BAD food obsessions.
OK, that’s what this blog is all about: the GOOD food obsession. I’ve realized over the last few months as my heart has been preparing for this, that a certain amount of obsession is needed to lead a healthy lifestyle. You need to know what you are putting in your body, but not so much so that you are a caloric calculator. Attention must be paid for a balanced diet. However, I want to be careful so I don’t become “that girl” and move into the ugly realm again. Everything is good in moderation. Food and obsessions. : -)
All that to say, this is my disclaimer for the next 21 days: I’m about to attempt a vegan lifestyle. I apologize for any food-heavy chatter. But thank you in advance for supporting my newest obsession.
Discussion: Feel free to post some comments on healthy food obsessed habits! Or maybe share how you have been obsessed with food.